Fool 04/05/2009
 

See.  Trust your instincts. Stick to what you've been doing and be done with it. Sometimes change is bad. You lose some things when there is change, or maybe the change is the loss...

Knowing is everything, gives clarity to something vague; yet when you finally get to know the truth, it changes you. It would never be the same. Reality slaps you in such a way that sometimes you wished you lived in that make believe world you were once in. But as they say, truth will set you free. It does.

I hope, together with the rain, this heavy thing in my chest would be cleared... so much for the truth, so much for the knowledge, so much for the change.

 
 

Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

 
7.5 04/04/2009
 

The dreaded question has finally been answered. Thanks to my wits in dealing, I somehow managed to drop the big question. And the answer was a 7.5 out of 10. Well it was good enough for me as i was expecting more of a 3 when i will be asked to describe the feeling. Yet, 7.5 is not good enough to make a relationship work. But even if so, the no complication rule still stands (for the moment, i hope) as no "label" was set. I'm just happy to know that somehow, it wansn't just me... i wasn't just dreaming. there was something... it was 7.5 out of 10 real.....

 
First Post! 04/04/2009
 

I saw ms.shai's page in fb while i was browsing through my friends list. Checking out happenings on other people's accounts... then i saw her link. It led me to her weebly... i thought.... hmmmm my journals are sitting there and goes with me everywhere yet im too busy to write on it.. i do scribble on from time to time when im on the road but clearly, i hardly touch it when im at work. at home, i'd be too tired to write,but never too tired to be online. so what the heck, i'll make one.

I plan to start my blogs on my recent holiday break.... excuse me for some cheesiness or tagalog terms...or bahasa indo for that matter... it's all part of the whole deal... buzz me for some interpretations if you like....

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